I know that you’ll never read this; but, it’s here.
To you, a girl who stuck between a rock and a hard place. I beg you to know your worth and know that you are loved. Know that you do not need such things to be happy and that you can be happy on your own. It’s difficult to see you in a lose-lose situation and to not be able to help you. All that I can do is tell you what I foresee in the future of both paths. All I can do is tell you that you need not choose either and that you may have the courage to walk away from it all- to forge your own new path. There is no shame in being alone, tending your wounds, and coming out stronger than before. Your friends and loved ones will always be there to support you, no matter what your decision is. Everything in life is a learning experience.
You deserve better. I pray you find the strength to realize that.
Best of luck to you,